1 of 6 Billion

I’ve thought a ton about my contribution to the world lately, and I’ve come up with the inevitable conclusion that I’m not going to make a huge difference in this world. I have finally come to the realization that I am just 1 of 6 billion and that I am not here to start a revolution or carry on a crusade or to even hold a title that comes with a bunch of responsibility. I am just one man from Asheville, North Carolina who is here to try and spread the word of his good Lord to the world. I am not going to be that one man who leads, or carries on some huge revival. I am one man. One young man trying to work his 9 to 5 work shift in this infinite world. I am just one speck on the time-line of reality and I have no business dreaming about goals that are unreachable. I was at one point in time labeled a “romantic” because that was all I lived by, dreams. If I dreamed it would happen then God would make it happen. I had huge goals and high standards that I now realize are unreachable. My head was in the clouds and that’s all I did was dream. My role as a human being is to exist only to spread the word of God. My dreams and my passions won’t be achieved, only God’s plan for me can be achieved. I have to let go of the reigns and let God take complete control of my life. I don’t have a great contribution to offer to this world, no real overwhelming talents or outstanding smarts. I’m just me. Little old me. The speck. The 1 of 6 billion. And I have to let God decide what he wants me to do and I cannot determine my own path and go my own rout, I must follow after his as he presents it.

-Jbell