ALIVE

Sitting here in my dorm I am flooded with information. But you know what I just now realized? I'm in college. I thought it hit me a long time ago, but just today I realized that I am free to make up my own mind. To decided between what I believe to be right, and what others believe to be not in their best interest. I don't have to follow exactly what my parents believe, but I can step back and make my own beliefs and speculations based on what I see them do that I think is wrong. I have enjoyed learning from their past mistakes and my brothers past mistakes and every ones past mistakes, because now I have the right mindedness to go out into this world and contribute what I have learned. I used to believe that I wasn't going to contribute greatly in my society, but I realized just today that being ALIVE in Christ and living in this world, THAT is my contribution. I may fail. Correction, I will fail, I will be beaten and I will stumble and fall. But I will not turn back. I'm looking out at my beautiful view of a parking lot, but even though that's not that beautiful, it is. Because I can see the rays of sunshine coming out from the clouds. God is here. He is in me. And he is ALIVE and well. I realized that today. I am here to be ALIVE in him. I love being able to form my own beliefs.